I once heard that though we often expect spiritual experiences to become progressively bigger and stronger, they are actually intended to become progressively softer and smaller...until we are able to recognize and follow guidance as faint as a whisper and as tiny as a pencil light. Point being: the more we follow the guidance of the Holy Ghost, the less we should have to depend upon it to make good choices.
More and more I believe the main purpose of divine guidance is to provide training wheels for choosing between good and evil, love and hate; not to compel us down one uniform path, and especially not to provide a roadmap for avoiding failure, disappointment, and sorrow.
I feel bothered when I perceive in myself (and others) an unwillingness to take responsibility for making choices, a failure to recognize good without being painted a picture, a resistance to choosing without being led. Isn't that defeating the purpose of our existence? Why, for goodness sake, has God given us agency if not to use it and learn through our choosing? Eternally-speaking we may be children, but if we overly glorify following we will stay put in the Garden!
In my life I want to be a doer of good because I have come to RECOGNIZE good and I have learned to WANT good, more than a doer of good because something continually TELLS me it is so and that I SHOULD do it. And I certainly don't want to choose it because I think choosing good will guarantee me happiness. On the contrary, sometimes choosing good is painful and miserably lonely.
What I want out of life is no longer to make all the perfect choices. I'm no longer quite so motivated by getting an A. I'm much more motivated by the actual learning that can be obtained from exercising agency to apply knowledge and choose an individualized path. And I love how learning and life experience is unique and tailored according to each individual's needs and desires. Some prefer (and perform quite well) in a Tour de France; I'll take my quiet bike path through the trees, my solo wipe-outs, and those simple beauties that bring me joy.